I had a dream in which my daughter (Anne?)
and a number of her friends figured. We were in a city, NY (?),
planning to get from A to B by bus. We agreed that they would
wait for me at a bus stop while I ran some errands.
In the next scene, I am meeting one of Anne's friends, a tall
male wearing a black overcoat and carrying a briefcase. He
looks very businesslike. I am surprised to see him there and ask
him, "where are the others?" She shrugs sheepishly. "Weren't
you all supposed to be at that bus stop waiting for me?"
I feel agitated. I catch myself thinking. "How are we ever get
something important done if we can't even coordinate a meeting?"
In the next scene, the young man with a briefcase and I are at a
restaurant. Anne and other friends start to arrive. They are
all engaged in happy bunter as they sit down around our table.
I say reproachfully, still sore about that bus stop
miscommunication: "So you decided UNILATERALLY to change our
plans, without letting me know?"
I can see that this comment is having a profound effect on some
of them. One young man in particular is looking very guilty and
In the next scene, we are all together again in a business
conference room. A new CEO has been appointed to this company
in which all these young people work. As Anne's father and a
well known consultant, I am being treated as somewhat of a guest
At one point, two men enter the conference room. One of them is
obviously an existing executive, like VP of public relations.
He is introducing the new CEO to everyone. The new CEO tells
everyone that he is a civil engineer. He goes around the
conference table shaking hands. When he shakes my hand, as
I reach across the table, I tell him, "I am also an engineer."
I notice that
I can't get myself to say "civil engineer" in front of
everybody. I feel embarrassed to admit that I am one, given the
turns my life has taken. I have never really worked as a
* * *
The dream is about LETTING GO of the old ways and patterns. The
youth brings different approaches to life. More flexible.
I should learn to embrace them and let go of old habits and
Being embarrassed to admit I am a civil engineer is also about (in)flexibility
of mind. I don't want to be living in the past and in my left
brain. And engineering is all about structure based on past
experiences. Not much creativity there.
As I wake up, I slowly realize those are the lessons I am
supposed to take from this dream. Then I apply it to what has
happened since Kona. These words come to me...
"I feel as if I have been sucked out to sea by tsunami. I am
adrift, being carried by ocean currents and winds in a direction
over which I have no control."
"The fact that three weeks after returning home I have still not
published a single travelogue about our trip to the Big Island
(which I used to do every single day in the past) - is an
example of 'letting go and letting God.' I am letting my
spirit guides take me to wherever they think I should be.
I never know what to expect when I wake up. Every day
feels like an 'Alice in Wonderland' journey."
Then I realize it
is the same message the Hopi Blue Corn Maiden gave me three days
ago (in the NEW GROWTH card, July 26).
"When you make room for
yourself to grow and allow the Divine to take care of the rest,
let go and let God," she said. "What will follow is a
time of harvest, celebration and abundance."
It is a novel experience for me. It takes getting used to. But
it is exciting. It is a "life of a Gypsy adrift at sea."
[those are the exact words the spirits gave me as I woke up]
Then I remembered something the Teacher said in Kona on July 9:
"True masters follow (spirit) guidance without questioning
it. Obedience makes ascension possible."
And that' was my first lesson of the day.