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June 27, 2011
Created June 28, 2011 - updated
July 19, 2011 - A Personal Essay on Intuition
Constantine and I
Emperor to embrace Christianity: A past life
incarnation now confirmed by authoritative source
A PERSONAL ESSAY ON INTUITION
Constantine and I
First Roman Emperor
to Embrace Christianity: A past life
incarnation now confirmed by authoritative source
Call it what you will... intuition,
induction, deduction. Probably all three. It was
certainly a combination of both the left and right brain
activities that led me to conclude three weeks ago that
I had been the Roman Emperor Constantine the Great in
one of my past lives. It was a scary thought. But not
so stunning as when I found out a few months ago that I
had also been King Phillip II of Spain, Portugal, Italy,
England (while married to Queen Mary I). So I got my
nerve up, and on June 28 wrote an essay titled
"Constantine and I."
But I didn't fully trust my intuition.
I was still too much of a chicken to publish it widely.
So I tucked it away shyly in the confidential,
password-protected section of my altzar.org web
site, and shared the story only with a few close
friends. I did not even tell my daughters. I figured
they'd declare me insane. :-)
Well, now that an indisputably
authoritative source has confirmed my Constantine
intuition in front of more than 100 people last week at
a conference in Kona, Hawaii, guess it is time for me to
come out of the closet. The story that follows is now a
good illustration how powerful intuition can be, and why
we should trust our instincts even if we cannot
rationally explain them. It reads exactly as
written on June 28, when I suspected, but was not sure
about my lifetime as Constantine. I've only added
now a couple of footnotes to clarify some points.
HAIKU, Maui, June 28, 2011
- Constantine and I seem to have been intrinsically connected from
the moment I took my first breath. Except that I didn't know
it for the first 16 years of my life. As time went on, my
spirit guides kept dropping hints here and there about our linkage.
But it was not until Saturday, June 25, 2011, that I felt for the
first time a deep connection to the spirit of Constantine. Was
he my past life incarnation or a spirit guide in my current life? Or
just a series of "coincidences?" You can be the judge at the
end of this article.
Who was Constantine?
Here's a synopsis of what Wikipedia says about him... (if you
click here, you can read the full bio).
Constantine the Great (Latin
Flavius Valerius Aurelius
c. 27 February 272 –
22 May 337), also known as Constantine I or Saint
Constantine, he was Roman
306 to 337. Well known for being the first Roman emperor to convert to
Constantine issued the Edict
of Milan in
313, which proclaimed religious
all religions throughout the empire.The foremost general of his
time, Constantine defeated the emperors Maxentius and Licinius during
civil wars. He also fought successfully against the Franks, Alamanni, Visigoths,
and Sarmatians during
his reign – even resettling parts of Dacia which
had been abandoned during the previous century.
also transformed the ancient Greek colony of Byzantium into
a new imperial residence, Constantinople,
which would be the capital of the Eastern
Roman Empire for
over one thousand years. He is hence often considered the first
in the line of Byzantine
The new city was protected by the relics of the True
of Moses and
other holy relics,
though a cameo now at the Hermitage
represented Constantine crowned by the tyche of
the new city. The figures of old gods were either replaced
or assimilated into a framework of Christian
Constantine built the new Church
of the Holy Apostles on
the site of a temple to Aphrodite.
In Rome, he built the original
"Old" St. Peter's Basilica
(right), and in Jerusalem the
Church of the Holy Sepulchre
History is written by the
victors. The above summary of Constantine's life would be a
lot less flattering it were written by his many victims. For
example, he had his own son Crispus, an heir to the throne, executed
supposedly on suspicion of infidelity with his wife Empress Fausta.
He had her killed, too, a couple of months later. He was also
ruthless with several challengers to the throne of Rome whom he had
defeated before becoming the sole ruler of the Roman Empire.
But at the time of his
rule, Rome may have reached the zenith of its power (see the map on
the right). And that, along with his adoption of Christianity,
are the reasons history has given this Roman emperor the epithet The
Now, that's all fine and
dandy, you may be thinking, but what does that have to do with yours
truly? Well, it would appear that my spirit guides have been
sprinkling Constantine clues throughout my life, just like Hansel
dropped the crumbs of bread in the Hansel and Gretel tale to find
her way back out of the forest.
For example, did you know
that my actual name at birth was Constantine? (spelled Konstantin in
Serbian). I didn't, either, until I was 16. Here's what
After I was born, my
parents sent my mother's younger sister to have the new baby
registered at the Belgrade city hall. She was a little slow
(mentally), and forgot the name they had given her. Bring a
devout Christian, however, she knew that June 3, my birthday, was
Saint Constantine Day. My aunt was too embarrassed to go back and
ask again for the baby's name, so she registered me as Constantine
(spelled Konstantin in Serbian).
She never said anything about it to
anyone. Six months after my birth, I was baptized as
Slobodan. The term means Free in Serbian. It was a
popular name at the time. The country had just been
liberated from the Nazi occupation. Slobodan abbreviates
to Boba in Serbian. So "Boba" was my nickname in Serbia.
After I moved to North America, Boba became Bob. When I took
out my U.S. citizenship, I added Robert as my first name
to make it easier for people to connect Bob and Robert.
Meanwhile, back to Serbia, the
bizarre story of my aunt's cover-up as the self-appointed
godmother remained a dark secret until I turned 16. That's
when I needed to have a birth certificate issued for my ID card
and passport. Alas, nobody at the Belgrade city hall archives
could find me. I did not exist according to official
Then my bewildered parents
remembered whom they had asked to have me registered. They
called my aunt who sheepishly confessed to her conspiracy of
silence for so many years. And yes, there was a
Constantine (Konstantin) Djurdjevic born in Belgrade on June 3,
parents then had to prove my existence through my baptism
certificate, issued by the church when I was about six months
old. Then they had to change my name legally from
Constantine to Slobodan.
while, none of us had attached any particular significance to my
original name. Not even when in the second grade, kids
nick-named me Caesar. Not that I was any great warrior.
My friends had no idea what the term meant. It's just that
I was the only blonde kid with bangs that covered my forehead
like the hairdo
we had seen on Roman statues (Constantine - below right, Bob 6-
& 7-year old - left, and in 2009 - right).
I did not like being called Caesar.
It was bad enough always to stand out as a blonde. (Most
Yugoslavs are swarthy with dark hair). So ever since I
started school, I had been brushing my hair sideways, parting it
on the left (see right photo - taken at age 18). The
blonde hair stood out even within my own family. My
parents and all of my aunts and uncles had dark hair. My
mother's hair was actually almost black.
a teenager, I also learned that the nickname for my father's
side of the family was "Greeks." Why Greeks? It
another 30 years for me to learn the answer to that question.
During a visit to Belgrade in 1990, I learned from a military
historian that 700 years ago, the Djurdjevic's were noblemen
whose lands lay in today's southern Macedonia-northern Greece.
You can follow their northward and westward migrations from
1,300 AD onward in
Djurdjevic Family History
(User ID/password required).
Just recently, I learned that Constantine's mother
also known Empress of Constantinople,
was an ethnic Greek from that part of the world. And she
was evidently blonde, too
And so was supposedly her son - Constantine the Great - whose
first name was Flavius. Which
means blonde in Latin.
You can also see the St. Helena's shrine at St. Peter's Basilica
at the Vatican (right).
Recent Clues: Sirmium, Nis
Ever since I had that strong intuition about my connection to
Constantine on Saturday, I have been researching
his biography. And I discovered
two other extraordinary "coincidences."
First, that the Roman Emperor had
spent a fair bit of time in Sirmium, which was then the capital
of the eastern provinces of the Roman Empire (see the map -
right). It so happened that I resided during most of my
formative years in Sremska Mitrovica, the contemporary town
built on top of Sirmium ruins.
In fact, my mother was the director of
the Museum in the 1960s when extraordinary discoveries were made
during excavations in our neighborhood with a help of a team of
archeologists from the University of Toledo, Ohio. So
valuable were their discoveries that the American government
made a proposal to the Yugoslav government to rebuild the city
of Sremska Mitrovica
(about 50,000 population at the time) at another location, so
that the entire site could be excavated. For,
archeologists had found evidence of human habitation there going
back 5,000 years. But the (communist) Yugoslav government
refused. They were big on factories, not culture. So
I grew up literally right on top some of the palaces that
Constantine built and lived in 1,600 years earlier.
You can see some of
the Sirmium archeological sites (left), and three golden Roman
helmets found there, as well as many valuable coins minted in
Roman times, like that minted with Constantine's image in the
above right shot.
my Saturday meditation, I also had another revelation. I
recalled an event that took place in the city of Nis, the third
largest city in Serbia (see above map). I visited Nis in
September 1999 during my post-NATO war
Tour of Serbia.
Among many local dignitaries, I was received by and presented by
a commemorative plaque by the Mayor of Nis (right). Take a
look at the masthead the Mayor of Nis used for the plaque.
What does that bust remind you of? Constantine, of course.
What flashed through my mind before I unearthed this photo was
Why would the mayor of a Serbian city display the bust of a
from 17 centuries ago? Because
Constantine was born in Nis circa 272 AD, I remembered, and then
confirmed it via Wikipedia. In fact, after the mayor heard
my "name games" story, he joked about that visit, my first to
Nis, being my "homecoming." You can also see above left an
image of Saint Constantine as a fresco on the walls of Hagia Sofia in Constantinople, the city that he built
and turned into a New Rome.
You can also see
Constantinople during antiquity and in Byzantine times (right),
and Constantine's Baptism (by Raphael) and his statue in the
city of York, England, where he was proclaimed Augustus in 306
What Does It Mean?
So there you have
it... clues upon clues since the day I was born. What do
they all mean? Mere "coincidences?" A constant
presence of Saint Constantine in my life as one of my spirit
guides? Or flashbacks to a past life incarnation?
Now, if it were the
latter, and if I had been once a ruthless Roman Emperor invading
and subjugating indigenous peoples, another thought that came to
me during my Saturday mediation. Perhaps my 18/7 work as a
war correspondent in the 1990s may have been my attempt at
DELETION of that Constantine lifetime? I worked without
pay in war zones and under NATO bombs in a dogged pursuit of the
truth, which I was hoping would help the local peoples avoid
foreign military conquest by today's most powerful empire in the
world. At times, it felt like a David vs. Goliath battle.
Except that but this time, my weapon of choice was a computer
keyboard, not a slingshot or a sword.
mightier than a sword," wrote British author
Edward Bulwer-Lytton in
1839 in his play "Richelieu;
Or the Conspiracy." The fact that the Truth in Media web
site was ranked No. 33 at the height of the NATO war in 1999,
out of some 40 million web sites in existence at the time, is
proof that Mr. Bulwer-Lytton may be right. I just hope
that it was also a successful deletion.
P.S. July 19, 2011:
The same authoritative source who confirmed that this writer had
been Constantine I in a prior liftime, also validated my
intuition that my work to bring about truth and peace to the
people of Eastern Europe is about "deletion" of that
Post Script: June
28, Momentous Day in History
This story is being
released on June 28, St. Vitus Day. Vidovdan, as the Serbs
call it, is a momentous, history-changing
day for the Djurdjevic family
and the Serbian people. It was on this day 622 years ago that
80,000 Serbian knights and soldiers tried to stop the Islamic Otoman
army from invading Christian Europe. My ancestors were among
them. The Serbs lost the Battle of Kosovo (left painting).
King Lazar was killed as was the Turkish Sultan. The defeat
plunged Serbia into nearly 500 years of slavery under the Ottoman
Turks. Surviving Serbian noblemen left the battlefield with
Queen Milica and settled in what is today northern Montenegro (see
the map - right). The Djurdjevic's were among them. As a
result, there is today Djurdjevic Mountain and the Djurdjevic Tara
river in that part of Montenegro. I visited them three years
ago, to lay a Despacho there before my first Inca shamanic
Montenegro: Answering a Mountain Call,
June 28, St. Vitus Day, is
also an important day in modern history. On this day in 1914,
a Serb patriot assassinated the Austrian Archduke Ferdinand in
Sarajevo, Bosnia, an event which marked the start of World War I.
Austria and Germany declared war on Serbia. England and France
allied with Serbia. And The Great War was under way.
St. Vitus Day
HAIKU, Maui, June 28 - I
got another sign this morning when I drew a card from my Mystic
I had asked the spirits for guidance about this story and for this
St. Vitus Day prior to pulling it. And the card I drew was the
TRUTH! Here's a message it contained from Archangel Ariel:
"Archangel Ariel stands without judgment. She urges you to do
the same. Allow compassion and forgiveness for yourself and your
innocence. "See" with your heart. You know when something
doesn't feel right and use it as your barometer. The more you
speak the Truth from the heart, the more you can connect with
others' Truths. Your personal Truth is as it resonates within.
Let your innate Truth kindheartedly rule supreme in all you say
So I guess
it's true. Thank you, Ariel.
CLICK HERE to view an excerpt from article at the
The Spirit Guides web